good morning!

13 march 2014.
years passed. i turn 24 years old this december and growing old really not help at all to express my feeling (can i get old and start younger? xD) time goes by so fast,im on my way to reach my dream. i take all the risk..no matter what :D because human being is a deciding being. i came here just want to write some words that i always remember. and here it is..

this year i loved. this year i've lost. this year ive changed. this year was hard. but i learned a lot. i've learned that people can be fake. i've learned that people can hurt you a lot without giving a shit about it. i learned that good people can change in a minute when their heart gets broken. i've meet great people but mean poeple as well. but the most important thing i've learned is that every person in this world is strong enough to let go. to let go of that painful past of yours that broke your into million pieces. people come and go, thats life :)

the most important thing is to stand up and realize that you deserve something better than a person that gives up on you.

love

FREAKING ME OUT

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TRYING TO TELL MY SELF TO MOVE ON, TO GROW UP AND BE STRONG

HALOOOOOOOOOOOO ^^

UWAA! its aorund more than six months i didnt even see what happen to my blog, now im back ^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! WISH ME ALL THE BEST IN THIS YEAR! AND YOU TOO! :D

well yea im just too lazy hehe, but beside it i have a lot of things to do! and srsly this period really driving me insane, im sick of all the assignment -____-' and also i have a lot of video that i must download then watch :p
aaaaand, its geting closer. closer...and closer. wew, i havent tell you, i'll go to bali next month, on 8 march exactly! hehe. cant wait >,< bcause i'll go there with my lovely moron! what a nice !! :D

did i tell about korean indonesia festival xD ?
its an event about korean indonesia sharing concert! and LUCKY my dumb friend maya, got the ticket!!!! WHICH SHINEE IS THE MAIN STAR! haha im going crazy at that time, we'll watch shine and we got it free!! xD and there's a moment where key of shinee waving us goodbye! no no, not for all the fans who watch it, but just for us! maya and me!!!!!!! ahaha curious? xD
after the concert, there are so many, yeah we can called it 'ababil' looking for where's shinee bus parked, its totally crowded, totally noisy and smelly of course x.x. so we decided to go home, beside that, we think, we're too old to do that :/
its raining.until we reached an conjuction and searching for taxi. for a long time! finally, we stopped the taxi, but suddenly.. there's a police, which blocking tha path of the cars. and we saw one big bus behind. we immediately have a thought, is this shinee bus? until suddenly, a man with a white pure skin open the curtains... we're freezing. both of us suddenly shouted and waved at that man. its KEY! HAHA and he waved us back, maybe he realized bcause of the lightstick we held. oh my god, after that we fell, we're not as different as tha ababil :D

ehehe sorry for the wrong grammar eh, i dont knw how to expressed that kind of feeling :D

dem dem dem

yeaa im on the sickest period ( again) im on the exam weeks. my brain seems useless.
i guess this is gonna be another hell. dont know what happen later. honestly im officially gave up.
but im hiding it behind my fake strength. and i think im sucess on it. there's so many annoying voice around.oh..im still thinking, this situation really doesnt fit for me.this kind of situation really makes me so fed up with them. not all of them, just some ppl called "namja" around me now. they're toooo different. i dont knw how their mind works.now i just realize, my brain still thinking as a child do. i dont want became an adult.this stupid yee, thats why i said my mind not as different as a kid.i feel like when im get older, my mind's works worst.i want my 3 years ago.i wanna go back to my hi school. no matter what..

this day

this day
i put on my shoes and I walk away,its a lonely road,but its such a lovely day
this day
no, i wont look back, cause its in the past,got a way to go,and my feet are walking fast away
and all that I know, is i tried so hard but its not worth fighting anymore,when all hope has gone,so im moving on ^^

tahiti 80 - heartbeat

this is the song ive listened lately :)

Enough for me is not much for you
Won't you forgive me that's all I can do
Can you feel my heartbeat
When I'm close to you

I'll never find another way to say
I love you more each day
It's quite romantic I know
That's how I wanna feel today ...
I wanna feel this way

Can you feel my heartbeat
When I'm close to you

I'll never find another way to say
I love you more each day
It's quite romantic I know
That's how I wanna feel today
I wanna feel this way, today

Can you feel my heartbeat
Can you feel my heartbeat
Can you feel my heartbeat
When I'm close to you

I'll never find, no I'll never find
Another way to say
I love you more each day.